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Yesterday was my exam.. I know you hadn't even remember that it was...
I was tensed, much irritated but with ALLAH's blessings exam gone good.. I was remembering how you use to be worried about my exam.. how you use to ask me to study.. But now it look like a dream which will never comes true.
All emotions were fading out.. you know now it happens that whenever you come to my mind I just try to throw you out of it..I really don't want to remember anything about you because more than beautiful memories cheerish, the bad moments hurt. But what to with my heart who just want you.. who just want to remember you, who still just want to be with you..
Today I was out.. again to a place where you were with me.. I remembered the most beautiful moments of my life there.. It was in lawrence gardern, in a dark place, in dim dim lights, the love was obvious in your eyes.. you know I was standing right there, just imagining you there but you were not anywhere..
My friend was asking me what happen when really my eyes were filling with tears while reminding you.. I was just looking at the place where once you were.. But there was nothing... Then I come to know that you have left a time ago.. you have left..
You are not with me anymore... I am alone.. You broke all promises of being with me forever.. But there were some strange feelings too..
you know today i saw a beautiful combination in myself... I was crying a river inside but i was smiling with friends.. My eyes were teary but there was a smile on face.
You remember I could never be able to do this type of diplomacy... I never learned to be a diplomate. but I came to know now that your grief is just mine, its just my personal.. Nobody can take me out of it.. Nobody can share this with me.. so what benefit of telling them about this..
I was sitting beside fountain and there were alot of marvellous memories of you with me.. I was just thinking that you are somewhere.. you are somewhere for me...
You know I was still loving all the things related to you.. I am too much angry with you infact if ever you come in front of me I will never talk to you... But am still loving you.. You know you are still here inside... HERE...
And not only here, you are EVERYWHERE...
How could I state that am alone.. Am not alone.. I have your memories and that's enough for me perhaps....
I was tensed, much irritated but with ALLAH's blessings exam gone good.. I was remembering how you use to be worried about my exam.. how you use to ask me to study.. But now it look like a dream which will never comes true.
All emotions were fading out.. you know now it happens that whenever you come to my mind I just try to throw you out of it..I really don't want to remember anything about you because more than beautiful memories cheerish, the bad moments hurt. But what to with my heart who just want you.. who just want to remember you, who still just want to be with you..
Today I was out.. again to a place where you were with me.. I remembered the most beautiful moments of my life there.. It was in lawrence gardern, in a dark place, in dim dim lights, the love was obvious in your eyes.. you know I was standing right there, just imagining you there but you were not anywhere..
My friend was asking me what happen when really my eyes were filling with tears while reminding you.. I was just looking at the place where once you were.. But there was nothing... Then I come to know that you have left a time ago.. you have left..
You are not with me anymore... I am alone.. You broke all promises of being with me forever.. But there were some strange feelings too..
you know today i saw a beautiful combination in myself... I was crying a river inside but i was smiling with friends.. My eyes were teary but there was a smile on face.
You remember I could never be able to do this type of diplomacy... I never learned to be a diplomate. but I came to know now that your grief is just mine, its just my personal.. Nobody can take me out of it.. Nobody can share this with me.. so what benefit of telling them about this..
I was sitting beside fountain and there were alot of marvellous memories of you with me.. I was just thinking that you are somewhere.. you are somewhere for me...
You know I was still loving all the things related to you.. I am too much angry with you infact if ever you come in front of me I will never talk to you... But am still loving you.. You know you are still here inside... HERE...
And not only here, you are EVERYWHERE...
How could I state that am alone.. Am not alone.. I have your memories and that's enough for me perhaps....
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