Managing Stress....

Stress... A reaction to unexpected behaviour... 

I was studying my Behavioural Sciences book... reach to topic of stress management...

It was all written which I am suffering from.. 

I am astonished that people can even withstand with alot of stressors and psychotraumas and what about me... I can't even handle a simple acceptance of a situation. 

I remember a dialogue from Harry potter... 

"I wish...I were dead... And what use would that be to anyone.."

Same thinking right now... What use of my stress and all negative thinkings.. Its just affecting me... Its just making my life hell.. I was not alone in that than why just I am who suffering... ??? 

I really want to get over it... I just want to let it go... 

There comes a time in life when I have to let go of all pointless drama and problem who create it and surround myself with people who make me laugh.. And really that's the time... Am really blessed to have people around me who can support me.. who can understand me even I am not willing to tell them anything... 

Today I realized after a long time that A fine tea, enchanting objects and soothing surroundings have a therapeutic effect by washing away the corrosive stress of life... 

There were stages of stress I was feeling from the day you have left... 

First I was in shock that what happened to me...I was just not able to accept the situation. Than I started to search for its reason that why you did this and in all that period I was just accusing myself for all what happened... And in the end I found I was not guilty and that was a relief.. You know not in front of you but ALLAH.. I never wanted to be myself accused by doing betrayl.. 

After that there comes a stage of "WHY"... Why you did this and this thing made me angry and irritable.. I was just wanting an answer from you why you did all this drama.. and soon I got the answer...

Then I was thinking what to do.. My mind was empty.. There was nothing except your love, memories and good times.. 

Then I started wishful thinking.. I was just thinking all the time that this can happen and this would surely happen.. But nothing happen... 

Then I think that I shouldn't be stressedon things I can't change in anyway.. 

And I left the whole thing to ALLAH.. he will do whatever will be better for me.. 

Lots of things can be fixed. Things can be fixed but many times relationships between peoples can't be fixed because they shouldn't be fixed.. So they should leave as they are.. If they are really meaningful they never gonna be broken down and if they are not meant to, time will just fade them as they never exist... 

I am leaving it as it is... I am leaving everything to ALLAH.. he is there than whats the mean of being stressed... :) 

In the end few words for you MY LOVE... 

Out beyond ideas of right doing and wrongdoing, there is a field.. I'll MEET YOU THERE. When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about ideas, language even the phrase 'each other' doesn't make sense anymore.